Thanks so much to everyone who entered our 16 Months Waiting Art Giveaway…you are all too kind.
And the winner is…
#57 Jami Shull (@jamishull). Super congrats Jami. I sent you an email, but it kicked back to me, so shoot me an email and I’ll get your canvas in the mail asap.
And today it has been 4 months since Mom passed away. I hate that I have these little death anniversaries all marked in my calendar…and not just her’s, but others too. Harper and Huddy are in MDO today, so Sol and I ran some errands. At Walmart I was looking through the cards and saw this one. Mom would have loved this and I would have totally bought it for her.
While at Walmart, Sol and I found the most amazing shirt & it was only $4.
I have been looking high and low for him a Batman tee since before his birthday…I thought it would have been easy to find, but for some reason it wasn’t. Sol was thrilled to say the least. When we went out to the car to leave, I opened his door and let him in while I loaded our bags in the back. When I came back around to his door to buckle him in his seat…there he was…taking his shirt off.
He apparently needed to wear his new Batman tee immediately…if not sooner.
I like him…like a lot.
We then headed to Joanns to pick up a few new fabrics. I am in some major love with this one. I love the navy with the bright colors.
I will be making something for Harper for sure with this. She will love it.
The 20th is always just really sad for me. And yesterday was a really hard day. One thing no one prepared me for was the grief my kids would have. Sol and Huddy not nearly as much as Harper, but even Huddy has moments where he just breaks down and absolutely sobs. When we ask him what’s wrong he either says one of two things…1) I don’t know or 2) I miss Grammy. Sol says his “I miss Grammy” quote every now and then, but Harper is definitely just down right pitiful. Even still she has days when she just cries her little eyes out. Grammy and her were best friends and Mom knew her better than anyone, other than Josh and me. Harper had this really special relationship with Mom and it’s very hard to watch her grieve.
I’m madly in love with that picture.
Last night Harper had her first soccer practice of the season. Before we left, Harper asked if I would give her a quarter for every goal she scored this year. Until that moment, I had completely forgotten that Mom had done that last season for her. It took me by surprise. And of course, I told her I would gladly carry on Grammy’s Quarter For Every Goal.
While they were practicing one of her teammates grandmothers was coming down to the field. The mom yelled to get the grandmother’s attention, “Grammy. Grammy.” and waved her hands wildly in the air. Silly enough, it made my heart drop and my eyes immediately went to Harper and I watched as she whipped her head around fast to look for this “Grammy”. She immediately looked back at me and I just waited to see what was going to happen. She stopped playing and just looked at me…it looked like tears were coming. I yelled to encourage her to keep playing and she did. It took her a minute, but she held it together. I was proud of her.
I saw this quote a while back on Pinterest, but I didn’t pin it, just wrote it down. I thought about it first this morning. It is beyond fitting for Mom. She definitely rattled the stars…changed the world…left a legacy…and left this amazing stamp on our lives. The one thing I will continue to strive for myself is to do the same. I want to rattle the stars too. And one better, I want my kids to do the same. We talk about how madly amazing Grammy was every single day. After Harper’s soccer practice was over and we were home…boys in bed…and I was putting Harper to bed and she asked if I would just lay with her and tell her things me and Grammy did together. So I did just that. It was a nice bedtime chat.
So even though days are still hard, we have this great assurance that Mom indeed left us with wonderful memories and that she changed our lives. She was a star rattler at its best.
Happy Tuesday!
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